Two is better than one:)


note to mum and dad
i know they have put high hopes in me esp mum
mum wants me to go through university and get a office job
get married to a good husband and lead a good life not like hers
i am truely sorry to her
i let her high hopes down by being such a stubborn and unfilial daughter
Her divorce and family violence led to my characteristic
untrusting and paraniod
she always remind me to choose the correct guy so that i will not follow her footsteps
yup, i admit i dont trust my bf though he didnt do anything that makes me dun trust him
i know this fact but i just cant..
recently the nightmare comes back..the scene where my ex father do terrible things
i have been having these nightmares from young till sec
just bear with it...it will be over soon
mum didnt want me to work this job..keep nagging that its not suitable for me
she knows i have poor health thus want me to find an office job
i am sorry
i know sths i have been rude to you ...coz i cant stand all those nagging
you always pin high hopes on me yet i let you down by not getting a office job and staying with him
i hope you will one day forgive me and will not scold me whenever i come back
i hope one day you will smile at me
sorry for all these troubles that i give u ..i am really sorry and guilty..
i will get what i deserve one day.but sorry